I feel like I have been complaining in a lot of my recent posts. Not being the optimistic type is one of my weaknesses and I have always struggled with not letting my insecurities bring me down. There are days where I can laugh about it and brush it off and then there is days – like lately – where things just really get to me. If I had to describe myself I would say I am cheerful person with a lot of sadness and a really dark sense of humor. My moods come and go in waves, and I don’t know if that is ever going to change. I try my best to lift myself up as much as I can in that moment, and I am not gonna lie, a lot of times I fail miserably. But at the end of the day, good times replace the bad ones even if it’s just for a limited amount of time and the spiel starts all over again.
I am not the type of person to make a big deal out of their birthday. One, I don’t really like drawing the attention to myself and two, for some reason I tend to get sad on days where you’re actually expected to be happy or excited. The big 3, birthday, Christmas and New Year’s eve are always quite hard for me. So part of this will probably be written on the actual day of my birthday and when this goes up, I will have turned twenty. Twen-ty. The problem is not that I feel old, the problem is that I don’t feel ready. Time flies and I still don’t know what I am doing. I know that I don’t need to, even most people in their 30s don’t, it’s probably the standard that I am setting for myself and obviously can’t uphold. At least, my love for photography, fashion and being creative in my own way always cheers me up and make me forget whatever my ever so complicated mind is currently struggling with.
I don’t really know what I was exactly expecting from Uni. Maybe less chaos, less people, less ‘I don’t know what I’m doing, help’. To be honest, over the past two months I have been trying to push any thoughts of the future aside which kind of works out until you realize that just because you can’t see it doesn’t mean it isn’t there. So I have also been making good use of my second trusty coping mechanism. I am not proud of it, but it’s been a while since I have bought as much as I do now. The bad thing is that I don’t even do planned shopping trips anymore. Since I work basically in the shopping area in my town, I happen to pop in and out of stores quite frequently ‘just to have a look’. ‘Just having a look’ quickly turns to ‘just trying it on for fun’ to ‘nothing haunts you more than things you didn’t buy’ to ‘I’ll pay by card’. On the brighter side of things, I have accumulated enough props for the upcoming 20 posts, woohoo.
I don’t know what happened to the German summer, but apparently there is none. What we get is maximum three days of kind of good weather and then about 1 week of pouring rain and crazy humidity in return. The number one question when planning a shoot besides who is going to be the photographer is what is the weather is going to be like. It’s basically about finding that perfect time slot of the day where it is warm, but not too hot, obviously not rainy and ideally cloudy so that you can open your eyes and don’t have to fuss around with the camera settings too much. Luckily, for this one we were able to seize the last day of good conditions before it is back to a grey, unpredictable sky.
Since the last post’s outfits have been rather on the casual side, I wanted to do something more chique for this one. I find the easiest way to make it seem as if you have put a lot of effort in your styling is throwing on a nice summer dress. It’s probably because people associate them with special occasions when in reality you don’t even have to worry about matching the top to the bottom half of your body. For some reason I used to hate dresses when I was younger, but reorganizing my closet I realized I have accumulated quite a collection over the past years. However, this pinstriped baby blue piece from Zara is new to my wardrobe and I am completely in love with it. I decided to pair it with my biker boots from Pull & Bear to make it a little more edgy and everyday appropriate. But I can also see myself wearing this with white sneakers or even high heels for the ultimate dress up. The possibilities are endless.
I lasted exactly 7 days until I broke my promise to not buy any clothes in the month of May. I remember passing by H & M and figuring just having a look wouldn’t be against the rules. Well, it isn’t. But falling in love with a pair of lace-up jeans and buying it two days later definitely is. Looking back, it was naive of me to take the risk of entering the store in the first place. Once I like a piece, I have no self control. I should have known that my stubborn self wouldn’t rest until it left the shop with the item in question. To my defense, these jeans are remarkably unique and I haven’t seen anything alike anywhere else. You could think that this kind of a statement piece is hard to style, but it actually isn’t. Just throw on a basic T, some sneakers like I did and you have a casual outfit that will still turn heads.
You might be wondering why I don’t post as frequently as I said I would. After Koh Tao I continued traveling through Thailand, but somehow I wasn’t really inspired to take pictures nor to write about my experience. To be honest, I was just being lazy and the last time I had used my big camera was for the post about the animals in South Africa. However, I made it my resolution to get out of this creative funk for my last stop of this journey, Bali. I knew that especially Ubud would be good material
I had had this outfit post planned out in my head for quite some time until I finally got around to do it. Faux fur and those ‘diamond’ chokers that to be honest kind of look like dog collars have been trending lately and I completely jumped on the band wagon. I feel like especially the big and colorful fur coats really
In Germany it’s a common thing for the graduates from high school to not start studying right away. A lot of us travel the world, do some volunteer work or just have a break from all the stress. One of my best friends is an au-pair in the UK and lives with her hostfamily for about
To be honest, where I live Halloween is not even a holiday. It’s usually a kid’s thing to dress up as something or someone else and go trick or treating. The older people are mostly not as passionate about Halloween anymore, there are some parties here and there but all in all everything is kept very low key. Personally, I have