I kind of knew that this would be coming, I just hadn’t expected it to be this early. University is now consuming the majority of my life. And by consuming I mean basically eating it up without even chewing. The issue isn’t my official schedule of lectures or seminars, it’s my own personal schedule in between all those events, that is filled to the brim with studying, reading, practicing and summarizing chapters for hours and hours and still feeling it’s not enough. Nothing is unplanned anymore. Time is money and I can’t afford to loose any of it. Whenever I intend to actually have some free time I have to ask myself “have I really accomplished enough this week to allow myself this luxury? When can I squeeze in a couple of hours of work to make up for it so that I don’t feel that guilty?”. Ironically, enjoying free time like meeting friends keeps me away from studying, but without those highlights of my week, I wouldn’t be able to function at all.
And between all those “appointment” however you want to call it, I still need my me-time. Time, where I don’t do anything at all besides laying in bed in my pajamas, no studying, no dates, no exercising no nothing. Just me, myself and I. Recharging for the next run. This is where my blog comes into play. Don’t worry, I am still going to take outfit pictures and post them. Just probably not on here. Doing a blog post is more than just taking one photo, editing and uploading. It’s taking a couple of hundred, selecting the best out of all of them, editing, writing, researching and looking for links. This is why I can’t really see myself posting on my blog once a week in the future. I don’t want this to feel like an obligation and considering how stressed I am at the moment it kind of feels like one. This does not mean, that I will never post on here anymore. This is still my passion, I just want to make sure that it stays like that. So I am going to post whenever I have the time and feel like it. And of course, I do have time between semesters where I plan to go back to uploading regularly. But for now, I will be continuing most of my blog on my Instagram. I know that a lot of you guys are dealing with similar situations so hopefully you’ll understand. Until whenever XX
P.S.: I am super tired and won’t insert pictures and links of the stuff that I am wearing, but you can find every single item in previous posts!
Photographer: Ceyda <3
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